Turn back the time...

Today my boss told me that the company going to confirmed me. I dunno what to say because I'm planning to resign from this company soon after I get offer from other company. And today also my boss shared with me something that really open my eyes. I dunno I'm that kind of person. I have shared with her my problem in this company regarding my relationship with other colleague. She told me that sometimes it is not about the person that they don't want to get along with you but it is come from my self. For the pass 5 months, she notice that I'm aware about people around me. Sometimes, I notice there is customer waiting outside and I still sitting there like no one outside. Maybe last time you make mistake but you can say sorry to them and don't repeat the mistake again. I should be more aware next time. Be alert with my surroundings. Make effort to reach people because people won't come and to reach to you. I must go and start a small conversation then slowly things will change. Maybe at for the pass 5 months they see as unfriendly and unhelpful person. She told me that I should build my self-confidence as well. Sometimes, she noticed me I don't have confidence to talk to people and even to transfer the phone call to people. I seems like scared. After heard this from my boss, I feel very sad because all the problem happened start from my self. I was the one who started it. But after all, if they still don't like you, you still cannot do anything because you cannot make the whole world to like you. It was encouraging. So, blessed I have her as my boss. Someone, that really I can talk with.

Happy New Year 2012!

Huh! time flies so fast..now I'm in the year of 2012..On the 1st January 2012 our CG went to Kundasang. It was a great trip. I have a great time with my brother and sister in Christ. they are great and sweet people. this trip we purposely do for our brother Henry, because He going to migrate to Melbourne, Australia. He have been with us for the pass 2 years. I feel so sad because we're gonna lose another member in our CG but still we have to moved on. 1 night in Kundasang give us sweet memory and some bad memory. When we reach at kundasang it was raining and very cold. Until all the sister wearing their own cardigan, long pant and socks as well. We are so worried how are we going to bath? That night we have our BBQ night, hot soup that make our body warm, drink milo and a lot of games. We all laugh together. We have a great night. I'm going to miss all my sisters and brothers.. :-)

I dont belong here...

I have been working here almost 5 months but I still can't get along with my own collegue. Sometimes, the way they talk very sarcastic. I know maybe its my fault I forget to tell her to return call her boss. I didn't mean it. Takkan about that pun until now masih sakit hati. I hate working here. Until now I still feel like I'm a stranger here. They all are so pathetic! I hate them! I don't want to work here already..O God please help me. I just wish there is another open job for me. I feel like I don't belong to this company. I can't stand here anymore. :-(

Christmas...

Christmas is just around the corner! yeah! so happy..now i'm thinking what to give to all my friends..Hmm, but after all i'm still sad. I don't like working here. When I shared my problem to my friends they told me "how I wish I can work there" but I don't feel the same way. It's true that doing nothing is good but i can't survive without friends around me. I need friends. Oh God, what should i do..

"Wish you all A Merry Christmas,
May the Joys of the season
Fill your heart with goodwill and cheer.
May the chimes of Christmas glory
Add up more shine and spread
Smiles across the miles,
To-day & In the New Year.."
-Rosie Cash

May your soul rest in peace..

On 22^nd September 2011, my best friend told me a shocking news. She told me that our friend, Alfie has passed away. I was like...OMG! (O_O)! I asked her what happen. He died because of accident. So today 23^rd September 2011, I read about the accident in the newspaper. After the accident, he still okay but his friend still urged him to go hospital but he refused because he told his friend that his okay, but on the insistence of the police officer he was forced to go to hospital. Maybe that is his destiny, at 9.00am he died because of internal injuries. He died in very young age. I remember one phrase "We plan but God is the one who ordain". Life is so fragile.

"Almighty Father, eternal God, hear our prayers for Your son whom You have called from this life to Yourself. Grant him light, happiness, and peace. Let him pass in safety through the gates of death, and live forever with all Your saints in the light You promised to Abraham and to all his descendants in faith. Guard him from all harm and on that great day of resurrection and reward raise him up with all Your saints. Pardon his sins and give him eternal life in Your kingdom. We ask this through Christ our Lord. Amen."

How I Wish...

Day to day, i'm getting bored working here. Even though, my manager already assigned the Job for me and my colleague but still i don't feel peace here and I don't like the environment here. This morning, one of our Bos from KL came and he ask from the retail booking form. Because I have a copy of the form so I copy the form and gave it to him. After few minutes later, Suddenly my boss told me that the form we already make copies and it is on the table there, and again she told me that I supposed to go and look around. what does it mean by "that" statement. She should let me know earlier where to get the copy of the form just in case i don't have my copy already. Those statement its like telling me "i shouldn't just sit down here without doing anything" but excuse me...here memang nothing to do! bullshit!..

EE2 outing

Ooo No! Holiday is over and now working mode is on. How i wish i can turn back the time. On the 31st August 2011, our CG went to Kasih Sayang Resort. The place very cold and beautiful. It takes less than half an hour from KK to reach there. We were very lucky that day because the weather was very good and we can see the view very clear because on the night before me and Danny's family having our dinner there and it was very cold because its raining that night.